Feminine power rising?

Allegations of sexual assault just seem to be flooding out of the woodwork here in Australia every day.. There is a climate of energy rising asking that these issues be addressed, but it also gets me to thinking of power and expression issues.. I met with a friend today who feels very passionate about women and the treatment of women. She is married but she often feels she carries so much more of the burdens in her family, as a Grandmother it is she who is there for her grandkids while trying to also live her life and find her own happiness, but often when we meet a lot of anger comes up and is expressed by her surrounding the repression of women

I can understand these feelings well. This is my one friend I feel I can go to with the things happening to my sister. I am under a lot of pressure from Scott right now and that makes me feel a bit antsy. I want to keep nurturing a positive view that all of this helping and trying to support will bear fruit in time but sometimes the weight of it all feels a little too much.. It makes me question each time we meet how our perceptions of things can color our world view and how injustice over certain issues just seems to figure as more of an issue for some people than others.

Getting back to the sanctuary of my own home where I only have Jasper and I to care for is frankly a relief. I think a long time ago I decided I wanted a quieter life outside of the mainstream. At the time I was working at the University Botanic Garden in Cambridge which is affiliated with Cambridge University and a lot of stress was going down in the workplace, there was also a lot of interpersonal conflict between two of my co-workers. .. Maybe it triggered past stress to do with my older sister but in time I decided to resign.. Now that I have not really worked in over 20 years at times I do crave some kind of occupation in the world but from what I see out there and what I know of myself now I know I made the right choice to step back. It is one my husband did not like and some may see it as having been a quite self absorbed path but for me it has seemed right..

All of this quiet time gives me time to reflect deeply on things. It helps me to set my own schedule.. It helps me not be as overpowered by agenda of the heroic driven masculine culture that does not have much intrinsic meaning for me. And now that I am not feeling as unsafe around others, I can and do try to reach out if I feel in need or lonely..My blog gives me a voice and a way to connect and for that I feel endlessly blessed.

I also feel very blessed right now also to have been afforded the resources to do the things I do. And I wonder after a time of meeting someone so focused on all of the repression what kind of happiness those kind of ongoing thoughts breed.

If the past years of watching my second female sibling struggle with mental health issues due to low self esteem and covert emotional abuse have taught me anything it is that the most invaluable asset we have at our disposal in the fight for good mental, emotional, physical and spiritual health is our attitude and take on life as well as a good and well balanced relationship with our inner emotional life.. A life lived purely on intellect, to me does not seem that fulfilling or satisfying if the needs of the heart are not taken into consideration.. A lot of outer materially and achievement based life can at times not always take those needs sufficient;y into account. But emotion also needs to be guided by reason.. Just because I ‘feel’ something it may not necessarily be true or a good thing to act on. For example I may ‘feel’ you are putting me down but maybe it could me my need for your approval and not knowing that I am loved unconditionally by God and life that is really standing in my way of peace or happiness. I may not ‘feel like’ going for a walk in the afternoon, but my experience is that once I pass through the inner resistance barrier I feel a lot lot better for having got out into the fresh air and moved my limbs and got my lungs and breath working.

It seems to me that we get more and more of what we tend to focus on, expect or project in this life.. And once we have managed to achieve a certain level of self esteem it is easier to be able to not be as bothered by the opinions or winds of change that surround us.. It is also easier for us to look for THINGS THAT MAKE US HAPPY AND FULFILLED AS OPPOSED TO DEPLETING US OR MAKIGN US FEEL SAD AND EMPTY. Sometimes it may also pay to release some of our fixed ideas in order that we an open to embrace a new way of thinking or behaving which will extend our life into new and more energizing channels.

At the same time I am witnessing here in Australia a rise of feminine power and of the feminine voice. I feel that women are not as prepared to remain silent about the way they can be overpowered, diminished, treated with lack of respect or over looked.. We have a national RESPECT helpline in this country now and by all reports it seems to be offering so many women out there a caring and open place of expression for what may be hurting them.

For myself finding a voice has helped me.. Being able to get a handle on how I was hurt and traumatised by life and often by men has been important.. And also by emotionally abusive people.. As a sensitive and an empath I do believe that our purpose on the planet at this stage is to give voices to feminine vulnerability and power.. I am with Anita Moorjani who believes it is we who must inform and challenge what she called ‘the (existing) Predator’ culture.. The devil may sneak in where the will to masculine power seeks to over-ride the more latent but very very inwardly strong source of feminine power which is nothing but the Source of all things.. Aligning ourselves with this Source of inner eternal feminine/wisdom power seems such an important practice, learning to touch base with it means we follow our inner code of intuition and knowing and no longer allow others to disparage or look down on that way of being.. judging only from the more superficial material surface of things.