there are so many things
I wish were not that way
there are so many blessings I wish for you
there were so many times I watched you fighting
and so many times I saw you not being seen
sometimes I feel so helpless in the face of it all
sometimes I have to recognize the limits of my power
there were times you hurt me
through misunderstanding
times you said I was being difficult or demanding
but other times you showed me the best of love
that you were capable of
if my voice falls silent now
please understand
I tell you so often I love you
I do not remember you being able to say it back
its okay
some things are not for us in this life
some times we just end up causing ourselves
more strife for wanting it to be
different to what it is
so these days
I kneel more easily
at the feet of reality
for God knows
there are so many things
going on in this world
that are just not worth
arguing with
Emerging From The Dark Night 