Jasper and I did the Dairy Hill Arboretum walk early today. It overlooks all the beauty of Southern Canberra and today the weather is magic with a gentle soft breeze kissing us as we walked. Feeling so alive even if my vertigo did kick in on some of the steeper parts of the path.
I love this fresh alive feeling of being close to and immersed in nature better than any drug and my body was in a state along the walk but the movement definitely helped.
We are now back at home enjoying a morning coffee. It was hellishly busy at the local deli today so I walked around the block then went back when it was quieter. People are often so impatient driving though…anyway as someone who has to work on her own patience issues I try not to get triggered.
There is a mix of both gratitude and sadness in my life at the moment but I am feeling far more accepting of the way my childhood was as well as the ways I reacted. We just cannot see what we do not or cannot see until far farther down the path. This pov also reminds me to be more understanding and tolerant of others. It doesn’t mean I need to accept hurtful behaviour only understand and let go of the parts of it that wound me more by being argued with or resisted. Live and let live..is one of my favourite AA slogans. I hope I am getting better at it.
Emerging From The Dark Night 