I love being able to get myself up and out these days..If Jasper wants to give me a morning off from walking I go and get a lovely cup of coffee and take it down by the lake, I pray there, check my blog and sometimes write.. I take a walk to be in nature. .then today I took myself off to the charity shop, I just love exploring the books clothing and DVDs, I always find something and I donate some things at the same time just to keep the cycle going.. for me its more about the movement and the interactions with people. I went then to get some salads and veges, came home and made a healthy lunch and I was thinking how lovely life can be, even if we are alone at times.. We are always surrounded by all of this bounty of creation but how often do we take time to just stop, breathe it all in, take notice, appreciate and practice gratitude?
I take very seriously Brene Brown’s observation after years and years of research into shame, vulnerability and joy that gratitude and joy go hand in hand.. one thing fosters the other. It is a practice that also healed Louise Hay of cancer, Louise thanks her bed for a good night’s sleep, her toaster for making toast and her car.. she thanks everything.. I have made a practice at night giving thanks for any food and since I eat meat I bless and thank the animal that died and gave its life for me.. Messages came from the angels that animals make this sacrifice.. I am against inhumane killing but I do think eating meat is good for us, there are so many nutrients in meat you cannot find in the same combination in other sources and I always have only a small portion.. no more than 150 grams and combine it with root vegetables, salad, healthy grains and other steamed veg.. Keeping the right intestinal balance is something that does affect both our brain and mood, the majority of serotonin is actually manufactured in the gut..
I love the sense of blossoming I feel lately.. I have felt so affirmed in grief and being able to touch base with other wonderful people who have endured losses that are so deeply painful such as the loss of babies and children or teenagers. Reading that they were also shut down or dismissed in similar ways to me shows me we are all VERY MUCH IN THIS TOGETHER and that its only ignorance or lack of insight that causes others to treat us in this way.
I know I said that again yesterday but I do believe as a collective we are transforming in this attitude and how we treat ourselves and others in the midst of grief.. And the two planetary energies associated with loss and separation, Saturn and Pluto making that strong conjunction aspect last year in the sign of Capricorn brought it all to a head with Covid 19.. Neptune can be associated to grief too, but more in the spiritual aspect..
Saturn (the natural ruler of Capricorn) is often pictured as the Grim Reaper that we cannot escape, he takes life and cuts off potentials for us but often the pruning is necessary on a deeper soul level so that something else can grow, develop or blossom inside of those of who surrender and embrace as well as endure these passages of loss. Pluto is associated to the Underworld Journey those of us who were abused, neglected or traumatised have to face, often in early life or can relate to seeing relative suffer in illness or die. Our healing comes from being able to move between the worlds of agony and loss and the daily one of new life.. poetry can help us here as do dreams or other kinds of creativity that help us to bridge both the worlds and dreams and poetry are also very much associated with Pisces and Neptune.. as we undergo the healing journey
And as the myth shows when Saturn cuts off the penis of his planetary or mythological father Uranus, Venus is born from the severing as he throws the severed genitals into the ocean. this shows us something very beautiful can be born for us even after having so much of us cut off in life.. if only we seek the healing of the waters or what Carl Jung and his followers have called the solutio,… tears and softening are a part of this.. we allow something to be dissolved instead of choosing to stay calcified in resistance, bitterness, anger or hardness (although anger is a very very necessary phase of our healing process and the heat of it cannot be avoided on the path for many of us.)
Saturn Pluto shows that out of pain such a blossoming can come, out of griefs fully felt such a desire to be open to experience the joy and magic and beauty of a present moment we sometimes becomes shut down to before we go through painful passages of loss. Loss also helps us to connect to the suffering of others, it shows us we are human. Only a culture invested in denying the purpose of suffering would lie to us about this.. but we do not have to believe the lies, we can, over time, eacg find our very unique pathway through grief, taking comfort and wisdom from those travelling that journey too. 💙🦋💙
Emerging From The Dark Night 