The shift of energy by Mars into an earth sign is helping me to be more in my body this week even if at times that energy body has felt blown apart by Mar’s meeting with Uranus.. I had a lot of anxiety this week but I have been clearing, cleaning and sorting out my home. I planted new plants, took out old dead ones and made a date to go to the movies.. The movie date was an interesting one as my friend wanted to see another movie Promising Young Woman. To be honest not knowing the entire content but sensing how dark it was I was not sure I wanted to see it.. I had wanted to see My Salinger Year.. Anyway we went to see the movie last night and it was shattering and devastating on every level, dealing as it does with sexual abuse of girls and women and the vengeance aspect in terms of the pain left within the being and soul of someone who loved and cared for a victim of such abuse who dies.. it took a lot of stamina to sit through the movie and I will not say much about it, as I do not want to spoil it but the Mars theme was strong. There is a time to stand up to abuse because abusers will do all in their power to wriggle out of facing the true impact of what they do and the lead character, Cassie, is able to make them not look away finally from the pain they caused..In the end justice is served even the journey to get it and make the abusers face waht they did takes everything from Cassie.
It made me realise today how important it is to have strong boundaries.. To fight for our truth. To not collapse. And to know our pain has meaning even if the abuser tries to twist it all around to make it look like we are at fault for not being too much of a ‘mess’, not strong enough or capable of sucking it up.. It is all too easy to fall over again and that is what happened to me last week, just a brief window of contact with an abuser and I was down again and the entire head trauma replayed.. I will be a lot more vigiliant with my boundaries in future..
I listened to an energy reading too on Tuesday night which helped me to understand the current shifts… it was recommended on the Facebook Ascension Energy Shift page.. the important piece I took from this was that we need to look for what brings us a sense of joy, light and uplift in our lives and do more of that.. We only have to do the things that energise us really and its okay to say no to draining people as well. People with boundaries already know this.. so they have less struggle and less health issues…for me the replaying of old traumas is no longer providing me with anything of good value, and the antidote for me is this : grounding in light filled and energising activities which keep my spiral going in a good direction, not an energy depleting one.
Emerging From The Dark Night 