hope

one day I hope I will get to

hold your hand

one day you will not stand

so very far away from me

one day my breath will allow me

to breathe

my soul will allow me to open to love

completely and trust

just like a flower

no matter the weather

and yet do not the petals of some flowers

stay closed

when the sun is gone

and if sun is hope

what happens to love then

for those of us who saw hope

so often defeated

there is a deep pain here

I cannot name

living inside my heart

being

body and soul

it causes all of these tears to fall

I miss you so entirely

with my whole soul

and you are far

I hear you echo your love

from the spirit world now

but Dad you are so far from me

were always so goddam

far from me.