Ache for you

Ache for you I will

You are my kin

And there are gifts you gave to me

Even though at times I struggled to know

If you really loved me

When sometimes there was so much

Hurt

Now I have to love myself

As I stand here helplessly

I see the forces that pinned you in

As I think of the Underworld that claims you

Now that I am leaving

It is tempting to think that I could

In turning back save you

But even now I sense

That to look too deeply into your eyes

Would mean that I am lost

I have to save myself

This is not my life

This is not my way

This is not my path to happiness

I must stay true

To this inner voice

Even as the other voices

Mock and taunt me

Never the less

You will never know the many tears

I still cry

And how much my heart

Continues still

To ache for you.