Missing you

Sometimes missing you is hard

I try my level best

Not to do it

And then I hear a song

With words that speak of the need some of us have

To need no one

Or at least deny we do

And I see a truth

Hard to admit

Even to myself

For even as I write these lines

Lonely aching self

Vies with Miss Independent

But if I am honest there is sorrow here too

Moments of pure connection lately

Open me to the golden feeling

Of more connected days before the darkness came

And then my entire body is caught within the flood

I have tried so hard

Never to need anyone

But now my heart is telling me something else

This letting go of you

By the powers that be

Is taking so much time

But there is nothing I can do

For the present moment

But to miss

And also long for you