Re reading an article on the passing Lunar Eclipse and the Divine Feminine Energy from the Conscious Living site today, it occurred to me how much power there is in receptivity.. And yet in our modern culture so much seems to be about activity..
It is interesting to me that during the intense wave of first Covid infections so much shut down and the world shifted out of a more active mode.. commercial enterprises were forced to close their doors. If you visited any commercial centers at that time the echoing emptiness and lack of activity was marked, and I have noticed lately when ever I visit our local library lately it is a far emptier place.
The article I read and posted a link to on my last post talked about getting into a state of being or active receptivity in which we become open to deeper frequencies or even just to a state of calm being in the moment present to the underlying peace. It is a state I am enjoying more and more both on our early morning walks to the peace park as well as back in the cool quiet of my home in the afternoons. It seems to me that the more comfortable I can be with stillness, the more actively I can drop over thinking, the more connected I feel to something far larger than me and far larger than just the personal In this state I get the sense that everything is okay and even as I sort through and figure out my past, that is long passed I get a sense when I stop tussling with it so much that all was working out for good and often became harder when others were demanding too much activity of me or when I made myself feel bad about things that just happened as they happened..
Kat mentioned the silence to me at the end of therapy yesterday. I had the thought which I shared with her. The silence is anything but silent, it is full of answers.. That said answers received in the silence may not always be able to communicated to others, they may just be about what is right for us right now..
These thoughts on receptivity also got me thinking about my sister.. It is always easy to be with her as she is often just receptive to whatever you try to say or share, she doesn’t argue with your reality and she often used to say to me in the past, just try and go with the flow.. I thought a lot earlier today about how rough I was in pushing my Mum and sister away in the time after my older sister died in 2014.. there were times of togetherness it felt hard to share in as I feared being ganged up on.. And yet we also had some happy trips and moments in the final years, they could not handle my emotions when they burst out then and neither could I really… It was hard to let go at times..
I also thought today of how much easier it is at times to just surrender to what is, rather than fight reality.. Like all the stuff that went down with my Dad years ago made me so angry last night but today I see its all in the past and it did not really affect the love I felt and longed for from my Dad..
Being receptive to me is like letting a wave rise and fall and flow on through.. I do not have to attach to the wave and God knows water is hard to contain unless you catch it in a glass bottle and then it will only go stagnant over time.. Today I took my coffee to the park and drank it by the stream as Jasper pootled around in the water.. I noticed how water flows around everything.. Maybe this is a lesson in letting our own emotions flow and pass on through while not identifying with them as much.. Maybe its just about witnessing and being present for a moment in time and then blessing that moment, feeling, emotion, memory or trauma on its way, as we, in releasing, open ourselves once again to be filled and receive what ever new experiences or blessings that day presents to us.
Emerging From The Dark Night 