Teetering

Teetering on the brink of life

Fear of the fall into reality

Must have scared you so much

You ran

Back to the safety of depression

Surrendering this anxious taste of freedom

Swallowing down the longings

They told you long ago

No longer to long for

Why are you listening the world?

Why did they work so hard to convince you

To drown out the beating of your own heart?

Why did you depart

From inner strength

To embrace the illusion of powerlessness?

Is the critic on your back?

Is the world never perfect enough

For you to love it?

Sad to see you ransoming your heart

Even sadder to feel you tearing yourself apart

With every word the accuser says to you

All of the lies

That were never ever really

Even true