Self sabotage

Everything is alright

Even when it isn’t

I make it harder with my mind

Travelling on all the swings and roundabouts

Of what ifs

And I fears

Running ongoing

Disaster themes

Don’t know why it is so hard to relax sometimes

Perhaps its just the untamed monkey mind

When I do I feel complete

But soon my restless soul is hankering for something

Maybe its just the way life goes

But sometimes I sabotage myself

So the old story of others hurting me

Is wearing a little thin

And even I see that

If I have the courage to be honest

In a world where so much is out of my control

Why can’t I exercise better self discipline?

Who knows

I do my best

But sometimes I tend

To sabotage

Myself