Caverns

Here within my chest

Caverns of grief

Oceans deep

Echo with loss

And also pain

That you would blame me

And say I lied

When all I ever did was try

Pulled along by old pain

And the longing to be connected

At any price

Tonight you have been revealed to me

As a shallow heart

You said I led you astray

Or tried to fool you

The knife through my heart

Impossible to eat

And then the anger

That spirals me like a me like a coil

Into the agonising void

But I will survive this

Rest assured

I never knew before

That I was blameless

Never could allow myself

To register the horrific pain

Of how I was shamed for

Trauma

Things never my fault

Stay away

I never want you near to me again

Tonight you not only erased me completely

You misunderstood who I truly am

I cannot forgive you

It’s a crying shame

Leave me alone

So I can fucking breathe