God knows I tried

God knows I tried to be there for you

But I cannot lie to myself any more

About how much it hurts to love you

When you go into this deepest of places

Only shadows fall across the hearts of those

Who care

And try to connect

While you stand looking the other way

Leaving our hearts in disarray

Wasn’t it always this way

I know its not your fault

You never gave birth to me

But sometimes it hurts

When you obliterate me

While all I do is love and think of how to help

Why do I continue to do it to myself

I know it is love

But my God at times it tears me to shreds

As my heart sinks into an ocean of sadness

And my body continues to bleed

Internally

From this invisible wound