i am learning

I am learning

that it is pretty okay to be me

and that my heart feels free

When I accept how difficult

the circumstance of my younger life were

and how alone I felt

facing the pain was rough

I did not know how hard my body would fight

the truth

and how much blame I would absorb

even though I did nothing

to cause what happened

getting upset helped

although time and time again

ignorant people told me to

calm down

there came a time I realised

I had to fight for my truth

but mostly inside myself

and that those who were prone to judge

so often knew so little

of what I went through

sad to say that life so often

fails to hold up a mirror to our suffering

or offer us a helping hand

but we must not give up

until we learn to love the little one

who holds our soul

so tenderly

inside her hands

letting her grow

in a sacred place

free from hurting criticism and pain

for we do not deserve

a single ounce of the shame

others try to pass on

when they imply

that trauma, abuse or neglect

and their results

were all our fault