Soften

I will soften into this moment

I will allow the depth of it

There are feelings that arise

With the going down of the sun

Pregnant with the echoes

Of so many generations

And maybe it is a gift at times

To feel the ocean of this sadness

And emptiness

For I am beginning to see

It does not belong entirely to me

Although at times it almost seems

To eclipse the light

That is when I must just soften

And surrender to these feeling

What will be gained by resisting them

That way only makes me erect

So many barricades

And I am so sick of that feeling

Of getting lost

And hardening

These days I would rather

Welcome all of these messy feelings in

For as hard as I try

Until faced all of these feelings

Will no go away

And they have something important to say

As the flooding tide washes away

Buried pain from yesterday