You can seek your guru, in an ashram, in a church. a temple, a science lab; you can reach for salvation on a mountain top in India, but. if you look deeply into the present, you will find you are already there (and remember) the ones who frustrate you, are also your guru.
Jeff Foster
I used to get a bit pissed off at people with a sense of humor and there may be something justified in this.. if you were teased a lot or humiliated in youth as a way of putting you down, it can be hard to understand the joke. Something about it grates deeply on us and feels off in some way but these days my soul just flies and does a bit of an air jump of joy when humor is able to break through the heaviness or seriousness of something going down in my life that maybe blocks my best laid plans.. I adore the quote used a lot by Carolyn Myss “know how to make God laugh? Tell him your plans!”
Today on the way to therapy I got held up by someone doing 30 in a 60 zone.. it was clear by the time he totally slowed down to turn around he didn’t have a clue where he was going and he had interstate number plates.. I was a bit delayed but I didnt let it get to me. I pulled over to the side of the road as soon as I felt myself getting annoyed to give him more space it was then he turned left and did a U turn. These blockages and slow downs often trigger anger because as a far younger child in a far older family I was often stopped, held back or felt unseen. Later, at lunch at a cafe I usually go to that has prompt fast service, lunch just took ages.. I was proud of myself thought.. I thought of Mars being retrograde and how Mercury was facing off with Pluto and wound the intensity of any sense of frustration or urgency down.. I just prayed “God this is slow for a reason, please help me to accept that and just be in the moment.” The good news is that about 5 minutes later lunch arrived and it was delicious, I saved myself the angst of getting into a lather.
I am bloody thankful lately to have found a sense of humor and the gift of irony, its true with my Moon Mars conjunction sometimes I can get myself into a thwarted frenzy but it never ends up anywhere good and often its just pushed people away.. That said there were times to lash out… and times I needed to be taken seriously..
Anyway thank God for laughter is all I can say.. I was sharing back and forward on the Ascension and Energy Shift page on Facebook last week with a guy who wrote that as he began to wake up and shed a lot of stuff emotionally he cried and laughed like he never had before.. That has been my experience too although with the heavy seriousness of all the trauma I endured at times it was hard to have a sense of humor about anything and I cried for many many many years before the sense of fun and laughter and seeing from a point of view of the deeper irony could arise.
One of my favorite quotes comes from Kahlil Gibrain who says “I hope for the rest of my life to be filled with both tears and laughter.” As we all know the line between comedy and tragedy is a thin one. And a sense of negative inflation is so often punctured by the ability to laugh and smile over something that once used to make us only cry. Here I not talking of humor used as a defence but rather of a sense of humor that is the outcome of hard experience lived and worked through and fully engaged with.. sometimes we just have to go through a shit load of anger, sadness and frustration to wake up to the funny side……..
Emerging From The Dark Night 