True happiness comes from knowing you are aligned with your own values, and that you can be true to them. True happiness does not lie so much in outward things but in the relationship we have to them and to ourselves. Even if things go on in the world that we do not like we can find a way to be at peace, we can have and express our feelings, we can allow painful feelings a place by making space but not attaching to them. We can find our flow when we follow the way our heart needs to go. ‘Sometimes that means finding a way to leave or gain distance from a situation or circumstance in which we feel we are betraying our own values or reality or recognising we are powerless to control another who does not want or need to change.
Lately I can recognise when disequilibrium or lack of peace is affecting me.. I am getting better at taking distance.. recognising the sign that I need to make a move, often I would stay in situations literally ‘chewing my arm off’ in frustration and feeling powerless to leave.. these days I leave sooner so I guess my boundaries are getting better..
Lately I have real friends in my life who also honour similar values, of empathy, consideration and respect.. I feel so blessed for these relationships many of which have come to me through owning my dog Jasper and connecting with others in nature.. I am so glad for the gift of my dog and for my connection to nature and my soul..
God it seems to me is the flow of life that when I follow it naturally takes me towards others I am meant to connect with in life..trusting this flow brings me peace, trusting in my own goodness and sense of value apart from others has been a major lesson, learning to let go of inner negative voices a very big step forward.. Today as Venus meets the heart of the Sun in Gemini I am so grateful for every single experience that has led me to here.
Emerging From The Dark Night 