errant satellite

Blocked the love

With the pain

Held inside for all these years

So it ran

Over and over again

No way to move forward

Frozen stiff

Bound in shame

Fearing that

You never understood my heart

I lost my way

Now I have changed

I keep reaching out

Most of all

I’ve made a start

In trusting life

And living truer

To the truth of myself

So that even now

The little child left all alone

Sent so very far from home

Is finding gifts that lay

Hidden inside

Through ll of her wandering

Over years of emptiness

At times

Regret still lives here

For all the things I never chose

That life imposed

But God knows how strange

Is one human life

Today I followed my heart

I made a start

I want to feel a part

Of your heart

Even as I build my own life

ET

Phone home

This errant satellite

Longs for the sign

That I am not only a foreigner

Within the mind of those

I long to see

Know

And love me