I don’t know about you but lately I am realising I feel most connected to my soul in the quiet silent moments, in nature, sitting by an open fire I made, eating food I cooked or cuddling Jasper, even sometimes talking to a friend or sharing things I love that is when I feel closest to my soul. It makes me sad to think of people who are always trying to escape from themselves. It is sad when we cannot sit and be without our selves, find a way to settle deep inside and feel our emotional reality for long enough for it to transform or reveal is lessons or truth…
Yesterday I had this profound experience of such deep sorrow and gratitude rising up after a long solitary nature walk with Jasper, it was overwhelming but kind of beautiful too and at that time I was listening to Christopher Cross sing Sailing and staring into Jasper’s eyes… I felt my soul in that moment, I also feel it when I gaze on majesty or even those times I sat by the bed of my Mum or sister when they were not well, I often felt it driving home from the psyche ward seeing an amazing pre dust sunset after visiting my sister, painful and uncomfortable as those visits were at times.
Lately it feels good to not be running away from me, to know I have a home I have created over the past 9 years, to feel safe inside of it most of the time. Today I wanted to share this piece of writing from Tian Dayton on the soul… I hope it speaks to you.. I hope today whatever you do, you do one thing to nourish your soul and find some time to relax and connect to your soul.
Soul is life, it is the energy that vivifies and animates. It is where all of me begins. When I take time in the quiet of my day to experience soul, I return to my own origins. I go within for the nourishment and self care I need. When I am stressed out or confused, it may just be that I am not structuring enough quiet time in my life, enough time to be refurbished through the silence of my soul. Soul reveals itself to me in stillness. If I wish to know my own soul, I need to give myself daily quiet time, to contemplate, relax and just be. Without this quiet time, soul has not opportunity to emerge into my day. It is constantly kept beneath the surface, thwarted in its expression and expansion by busyness and preoccupation. Excessive pointless busyness keeps me from being with soul. Then I feel a loss of connection with self, and I try to solve it by attaching myself to one more outer experience in an attempt not to feel so alone or lost. (then) I create disappointment. Soul’s expression comes when I sense its presence, when I am still enough to allow it to come forth. Soul is ever present in all things. Today I will remember this truth.
Emerging From The Dark Night 