Soul’s awakening

Sometimes the darkness makes its claim

I am there again

In the utterly forsaken place

Where there was not even a glimpse

Of sunshine

Hard to see sometimes

I thought so little of myself

That I settled for this

You telling me over and over

In a hundred ways

That my needs meant nothing

Treating me so abysmally

When I was sad or in pain

And the deepest shame was

I thought I did not deserve any better

That whatever your storms

I just had to weather them

But maybe the truth is

I cannot regret it all

When in reality

I had to fall

This far from grace

Before the tide could turn my way

You see I can no longer live

In this much darkness

That much pain

And pain when it was

Gratefully received

Became my best teacher

So I will weather all of this rain

All of these storms

That life brings to ensure

The breaking

The cleansing

The clearing

And my soul’s awakening