The cost of remembering

Where did you go

When I needed you

Why did you leave

When I loved you

When all along

It was your heart I longed for?

Staring so hard down an empty street

I wonder what I did wrong

To make you go

Only seeing it all through

A young child’s eyes

And this longing in time

Well it led to so much grief

Because when you returned

Everything shattered

And I cried and came to believe

Nothing good

Could ever happen again

At the hands of men

But the story was larger

Than anyone knew

So now it is now

When I dream of you

While shedding tears for a loss

I could never explain

The deep roots of until now

Inside my heart I recognise

The silence refrain of longing

That dogged me

All along the meandering corridors

Of my years

As I shed tears for the sister I lost

And the painful

Though liberating cost

Of remembering