deep dark winter

Silently in my heart

I weep for so many things

The touch of spring you brought to me

With your presence

Now you say it is broken

Because I opened up to say

How sometimes I don’t feel safe

In this body

And you say

This is the reason

To leave me alone again

Instead of drawing close

Right now

I do not know how my heart

Can contain this pain

Or the feeling of shame

That almost wants to devour me

Voices tell me I am better off dead

Than to have lost the love

Of someone I thought

God had led me to for understanding

And healing

But you wanted a perfect girl

And when I opened my confusion to the crowd

This was further evidence of my guilt

So now it is my heart

Shatters and breaks into a million pieces

At your misunderstanding

As I weep here all alone

Torn apart with the pain of knowing

That only another deep dark winter

Of suffering

Is on its way