Ego sometimes gets a bad wrap and we may be accused of being egoic when we actually need to stick up for ourselves, that said the negative ego can give us some problems when it gets in the way of spirit. Not all of us are privy to the ‘divine plan’ but we can get some kind of sense when we are living in and out of alignment with the deeper spirit or self. We all have blinds spots and there are times we clash with others in terms of needs or wants longed for or unfulfilled. In fact the more unfulfilled need and want from the past the more we may bring the burden of it into the present. This happened a lot in my past relationship and emotional immaturity between both of us at times caused problems.
I happened across a lovely book on the Power of Love yesterday on special in my local bookstore. It is written by spiritual medium James Van Praagh and his name caught my attention because immediately after Mum died I borrowed a book from the library that he had co authored on spirit communicating after loved ones have passed over. What he wrote helped me a lot with talking to Mum and dealing with the painful aftermath of emotions that followed due to the difficult circumstance in which she died.
I just wanted to share the following from it. I am getting a bit more sense lately of when ‘negative ego’ in terms of fear and emotional insecurity can get in my way. It is something I want to work on by deepening my spiritual connection and becoming more open to inner guidance. I am changing my view of the Universe lately and seeing that trusting and opening are important while working to have better boundaries too.
As I opened my mind to the power of love, I had many creative, forgiving, imaginative and compassionate experiences. By constantly receiving impressions from spirit, I learned how to distinguish my ego’s fearful and insecure thoughts, from the still, small voice of Spirit’s love within me. I learned that by not judging my thoughts, no matter what they were, I was bringing more love into my awareness, and in doing so, I experienced more fun, joy and freedom in my life.
Negative ego often wants to come in and kill off a sense of openness, trust, life and joy for us. It can see all the blockages and is tinged by fear a lot of the time. Getting a handle on when its the negative voice talking rather than the more powerful, grounded one that issues from acceptance, surrender and love helps us not to struggle so much in holding on too tightly to the things we cannot change or have limited control over, while feeling positive enough to open to and embrace to changes and new experiences that we are better able to embrace when egoic fear tries to shut the door on forward movement of the soul.
Emerging From The Dark Night 