This reading spoke deeply to me today. I know when I have lashed out of my own past pain in times gone by (instead of being able to contain, acknowledge and articulate it) the result isn’t the best although the pain engendered does teach me something too. I hope this reading helps others.
Today I see what carrying anger and rage from situations that occurred decades ago has done to me in my present life. I have dumped not only anger but rage from early wounds on those who surround me today and have seen them as responsible for my pain. When I am really willing to look at the depths of the wounds I carry from living in a dysfunctional home, I can begin to let the past go. It’s different from feeling sorry for myself to admit the full extent of my hurt and fear of abandonment. It is giving myself a chance to live in today by seeing yesterday, not as I wish it had been, but how it (really) was for me, understanding that no one meant for it to be that way; it just happened.
I see my hurt for what it was.
If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself but due to your own estimate of it; and this you have the power to resolve at any moment.
Marcus Aurelius
Emerging From The Dark Night 