Acceptance

Acceptance is important to me as it takes me into the reality of things, painful as they may be. I am beginning to realise after reading portions of David Richo’s book on fear and love this week on drama and ego that all of our suffering comes from non acceptance because as long as we don’t allow ourselves to accept the full reality of painful things that happen and TRULY work through the associated emotions we don’t really grow or heal.

For me I have had to accept the reality of my painful childhood and tumultuous growing up years to understand myself and my defences and reactions. I have had to accept all of the painful circumstances and unhealthy choices I made too, out of this past in order to grow, accept and love myself and become ‘real’ to myself. As long as I am running from my past, blaming others, guilting or attacking or shaming myself or others I am not really allowing myself to feel the feelings and be honest and embrace the wholeness of it all in love. I am just creating more and more drama or white noise or unnecessary suffering or anxiety for myself.

As soon as I turn towards and embrace the ghosts or monsters or painful stuff I find freedom from these things. They no longer run my life and they no longer torment me as much taking the form of a deep longing of my soul to finally in some way get my attention.