Rest in peace

I wish that I could rest in peace

Free of all the things that pull on me

Due to empathy

I will often not let my body be

When mostly want I need

Is the soothing grace of silence

A place where I can feel my own heart beating

Silently for myself

Rather than for everyone else

And with the love you miss

I long to fill the void

And sometimes wonder why

When I think of all the work I have had to do

To dig deep inside

Facing all the things I could not hide

From any more

And most of all I wish I did not have to feel

The need to try so hard

When letting go so often seems

The best of things to do

And yet these thoughts and heart aches come

Reminding me all the time

Of the need to reach out

Which is so often belied

When we meet

And yet my heart will probably always

Ache for you

Because I do not have the luxury of hiding

From the truth

Of all the ways I saw you hurt

And be hurt