Purpose

At times I wonder at my deeper purpose of being here

Is it just to disappear

Deep within all the dread and fear

That seems to circulate

With no pause button

On silent repeat?

And then at times

I feel the sun of hope

Start to shine

From within the darker confines of my mind

Showing me how unkind

My thoughts, reactions and actions have been

Just a default setting

Devoid of deeper recollecting

Of the truth

That love is the foundation of everything

And yet I lost the way

When I fell asleep

Forgetting that the purpose of life

Is sometimes to remember

And sometimes to forget

The Self