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It feels like dying

I hope you know things

It may not be possible for you to know

Unless I tell you

For we do not live

Inside each other’s bodies or hearts

And sometimes things that happen

Can just tear us apart

But to me what matters most

Is to preserve the connection

Is this right or wrong?

Can I hold on

Or would it be better to let go?

(Maybe only my soul can know

The right way to go)

And sometimes pain is hard to embrace

When we wish the wound

Did not ache

Quite as much as it does

And when we are torn

Then the deepest part of me so often feels

Inconsolable and oh so alone

But I know that these are only feelings

With deep roots in the past

That will come and go

But sometimes when I am drowning

Deep inside that void

It swallows all the air

And then the pain

Feels like it will never disappear

These are the times

I take the hand of my child

And place her on my knee

As I try my very best to befriend

The terrified part of me

Hoping I will be soothed in time

And the agony begins to ease

But so often

When this happens

It feels ever so much

Like

I am dying

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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  2. I recognise this feeling so well Deborah. At the moment I am going throughthe same thing but probably for diferent reasons. Why does it feel so much like fear!

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    1. I dint know but I recognised today how much it does. I will email you later. I caught up with some old friends I see so rarely tonight so I just saw your message now. Sending you a big hug, Lorraine its close to midnight here now. 💞💞💞

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