Under your hands

Under your hands

I was struggling to breathe

Just as I was at seventeen

And then there was the thought

Of how my body ached

To surrender itself to my first love

But of how the shame

Well it kept me bound

And pushed him so so far away

Is this the reason why

I feel so cursed

That horrible education

That convinced us it was worst of all

To be born a woman

Sins of Eve

Supping with the snake

And what the hell

Were we to make of this

At such a young and terribly innocent age

So now there is a reason why

I wake struggling to breathe

Almost drowning

Under a wall of water

Which is ten parts oceanic desire

Eclipsing so totally the light of hope

Within in my body mind

That longs to open itself

To the love within your touch

And yet still I fantasise

About how to leave you behind

And then cry to the depths of myself

For abandoning yet another chance

To fully open my heart to you

And grasp this opportunity

To become fully naked

Fully vulnerable

Completely alive