Opaque

I looked for myself

In your eyes

But in those depths

All I saw were two spaces

Opaque

Sometimes the glare of your contempt

Froze me

Arresting my flesh

Now it hurts to remember

How deeply I longed

To be seen

I ache for how much I hungered

Without every truly knowing the reason why

And so it was

I began to be led upon that fruitless quest

For love out there

And this I know

After being almost stripped bare by longing

For some souls this kind of emptiness

Is entirely too much to bear

And when it all becomes too much

The barren heaviness of that soul despair

Who will count the actual cost

Of the loss

Who will see the truth

Through eyes now turned

Opaque?