Thanks so much to a recent visitor for commenting on this post. It really helpled to read this today and it made the conflict I went through on the weekend when the Moon opposed Pluto so much more understandable. I am very much is happier self today, but we do need to honour both sides, because past trauma captures and so often keeps us imprisoned in the Underworld!
My sad self is not the whole of me, though at times it is so strongly present. There is a side of me that is very dark and heavy and sad, that has lived in a dark and heavy places of isolation, separation and grief and known great loss and pain, awakening at 17 when an accident nearly took me out and stole from me that last semester of my final year at school. Talking with my therapist a few days ago I spoke of how it felt like at that age a tear appeared in the fabric of the earthly reality and a dark hand reached up to grab me and take me down into the Underworld. That was just the initial event of many traumatic experiences that unfolded spanning the years from age 17 to 31 when I finally got sober and arrested my active addiction in 1993.
The light returned for…
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Emerging From The Dark Night 