Unintentional

You didn’t mean to hurt me

I just carry loneliness from childhood

That left me feeling such a longing

It was hard to admit or name

I try to pretend I don’t care

But if I pretend

Who is it helping

And yet its not your responsibility

To fix my wounded places

And when I feel my pain

What happens to my ability to see

That everything is not always easy or perfect for you

But you are surrounded in love

Because of choices you made

Whereas I chose to stay alone

Due to conditioning

That so often makes me revolve

Away from connection

It is no one’s fault

But needs to be grieved

I am just carrying something

I never chose

I see that now

How all along

Everything that happened

Truly was

Unintentional.