I am grateful

A huge thank to my kind friends on Word Press for your support and recommendations yesterday. I felt so loved as a result of those reaching out to me. And I saw that the lunar eclipse of a few days ago had shone light on my Saturn Mars Moon, the lonely little child in me who never got quiet seen as she needed to and so adopted a disguise but also held aspects of parental inner child trauma as well. It was as if I saw everything in stark contrast yesterday and it was so painful as the inner critic swooped into convince me EVERYTHING WAS WRONG. Later in the day I swung into gear and sorted out a lot of old things I had lying around, I planted new plants in the garden to replace the old dead ones and I realised if I want change and nurture in my life I need to foster it out of true desire. Not by forcing my will as much as by fronting up.

I prayed a lot yesterday to higher power and today my prayers were answered. On a beautiful walk through the natural garden and small woodland behind the nursery near to home I ran into a couple with their Alsatian dog who had lost her Mum and sibling (the dog that is) just a short while ago. It turns out the woman’s parents were from Holland just like my Dad and after we started talking the male partner, Martin told me he is an inner child/somatic therapist, he used to work as a psychiatric nurse and then seeing the problems in the traditional mental health system he went off to do psychology training and it was amazing. He gave me a hug when I started tearing up telling him how distant my Dad was emotionally. And we had a great conversation. We must have talked for about 20 minutes but Jasper soon grew impatient and wanted to walk onwards.

I felt so full of happiness then when I got home and had lovely comments on yesterday’s post so a big thank you to everyone. I know this recent eclipse stirred a lot up and with the North Node in Cancer we are having to look at inner child and family issues. The Full Moon was actually in Leo which also rules the inner child (on a solar level, as opposed to Cancer which rules it on a maternal and familial inheritance level). I was feeling my inner child’s loneliness yesterday. I am more in adult self today but the adult side is now far more aware that little Debs needs more connections, but I trust that this will evolve naturally if I don’t push it.

And thank you to Lisa from All About Life for sharing this Lao Tzu quote with me… it really, really resonated BIG TIME!!!

I hope everyone has a special Tuesday or Monday evening (if you are in the Northern Hemisphere!)

“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”