I carry the ocean

I carry the ocean 

In this body

I am here

Swaying

Circling

Riding the ongoing tide of our 

Ancestral journey

As wave after wave of grief

Lifts and rolls me

And I have realised

There is so much more to me 

Than me

Here it is that I am flooding

In the place where the black pools of your eyes meet me

So happy to see me

After my neighbourhood wanderings 

You are the peace I come home to

That restores me to 

The ocean inside of me

As I remember how she danced

Around the streets alone

Standing in the milk bar

Not from home

And how all those years later

Her body lay rigid

As we waited for death to make its claim

It was too much for me

To stay

I had to break free

I could not remember you like that

But today when the vision came

I was undone with grief again

Are these sorrows ever truly done

Or do they just live on 

Receding below the surface

Of body memory

Until the time comes once again

To summon them up

Examine

And set them free