No stranger to disappointment

No stranger to disappointment

I know by now happy things are so often not for me

So many chances held out before me

Like a treat being dangled on a stick

Only to be pulled away at the last moment

Leaving me emptied

Hollowed out

Crying deep inside my bones

I am no stranger to disappointment any more

But what hurts even more

Is the lack of trust that comes again

When you tell me they want even more

To set you free

And I wonder how on earth this can be

I just sat in the chair at Kats and cried and cried and cried

I didn’t know how I would even stand

And then the long drive home

And more pain

As you struggle with my lack of trust

And once again

All our hopes and dreams turn to dust

I am no stranger to disappointment any more

And I will no longer hope for anything again