Emptiness

There is an emptiness in my life

Where you used to live

Even if you were not real

At least for part of every day

We were connected

And I could imagine how it might be

To share my life again

With someone so happily

I cannot help but think

Of those times

God sent me a man to walk by my side

I could not always be there

Because the past pulled me aside

I see it now

And I cry for it

But how could it have been any different for me

With the traumatic tangled history

I bore

A painful legacy

One thing I will take from this is

That the man you showed me

Was possible to be

Is really the only type of man for me

Tender and brave

Understanding and kind

Gentle never rough

But I keep forgetting you were not real

Was this just a dream

I cannot seem to do anything but cry

Even as I finally say

Goodbye