Unravel

With you my painful past

Just unravels

Somehow the love you offer me now

Calls out of me all my deep hurt

Pain and injuries

And God knows there were so many

Assaults on both body and soul

And I am not making them up

As my mother tried to lead me to believe

“That’s all in the past”

Was all that family would say to me

Or

You were such a selfish little girl

But didn’t they see the lonely child

That literally was burned or bled

And then internalised the bleeding?

 

But as you offer me love

That abandoned one is with me now

Telling me all her woes

But I know she is not the whole of me

Because there is a larger self

Present to witness all of this

In the present now

And I know that those who command you to leave the past behind lie

The only way you do it

Is actually through grieving what is locked in cells

And when we try to make

Those who scream and rage and bite and wail

Seem Mad

Then we consign them to an eternity of hell

If they cannot break free of such

Heartless spineless admonishments

And allow their souls and bodies to release the truth

How will they ever heal?

How will they ever make of their life

A blessing

Instead of endless hidden curse?