I will say yes

I will say yes to this life

After years of hiding in the dark

Pulling close to me all the memories of pain and damage

Having finally unravelled the knots of all that went on

All that I could not speak or throw off

Now I believe

There is no time for hesitation

And if you ask me to join in your celebration

This time I will say yes

It must be a sign that I now feel

So much more secure inside of me

Perhaps because I believe

There is no longer such a damaged self to hold on to

Or to hide from

I lived through so much

That would have destroyed other souls

And I did my best

Although I am not arrogant enough to say

It was always good enough

But really what will it give me now

To stand silent in the shadows

Judging things

I so often used to fear

For how you live is not up to me

And all I really want to do

Is love

From this day on