Grieving

Grieving

At times you are all I really know

You are the tide I just feel rising

Pulling on my chest

And taking me so far from home

And all I really feel is that I am being dissolved

As my heart contracts

With a longing for too much I had to suppress

So that now when you come asking

Wanting desiring

Me to surrender to a new life

Beyond this pain

I make you wrong

Because the heat of life becomes too much

And I have to get away from the fire

Fearing I will be burned

But then the world becomes so cold

Without you here

And I question everything

And this is all I know for sure

That there are depths to us that reason

Can never fully countenance

And what we make of things with our minds

Is surely not the whole truth

Because mysteries lie much deeper

Below the surface

Than we could ever know

And just when we think our grief is done

Low and behold

Here comes another wave

Taking us under

Making us fear that death once more is very close

Its breath is warm upon our face

And so we slowly succumb to its embrace

Becoming extinct within its contraction

Pulling us under

Until in time our energy

Resurfaces

Upon another wave