Season Reason or Lifetime

You say this love is endless

You say I am your reason for living

But I am still not entirely clear

If you came into my life

For a season a reason or a lifetime

You see I have only ever known a life of broken sections

Periods of loss interspersing times of what seemed to be

Only the briefest times of connection

That in the start offered a promise

But very soon proved to be obliterate

I am more familiar with the sound of breaking plates

That peaceful dinners

Where lovers hold hands over candlelight

Staring long and hard into each other’s eyes

And so my love

If I seem gun shy

Will you ever understand

The ghosts that posses me

Or the reason why

After times of such closeness

I seem to change

As outbursts come

Could this be perchance only fear

And too far too much unfamiliarity

With security

That makes the high squalls blow

And so If I say to you

I am not sure

Will you understand

For until we live this through

I am never going to know

Just which way the cards will fall

And whether or not

We were meant to be

Given into each others keeping

For a season

A reason

Or a lifetime