So far from home

In a photo of you

He portrayed what you tried to hide

Behind all the lies

Not that you were ever a liar

Just someone so full of desire and fire

That got on a one way train

That didn’t stop

At any station

Riding so fast

To a lonely destination

How could it come to this

Trapped inside those roles

That had so much darkness at the heart

You must have absorbed it all

Till it became an inextricable part

Of your aching heart

And then there was all the anxiety and doubt

That descended

As you laboured to believe

In the talent you portrayed

But if life is reflected in art

Then somewhere inside

There was insecurity tearing you apart

Propelling you on

Until you could not stop

And your body finally said

Enough

These lungs can no longer keep breathing

Under the weight of all this medication

And so your life gave out

In a room all alone

So very, very far from home