Down hearted

Mostly I like to inspire on my blog.  To share some love and light, more so lately but tonight I feel somewhat down hearted.  I had a tough day with one thing and another, some more heartbreak about being blocked from trying to help my friend and tonight I was watching some television to relax but was just overcome with the amount of violence on the screen.  In one scene a man was trying to kill two women by putting plastic bags over their heads.  I just turned the television off which I probably should have done to start with.  Living alone I use it for company many nights. That said it just really saddens me to see how much negativity and violence mainstream entertainment so often shows.  I try to watch comedy if I can lately if I do watch anything.

I was also talking to my cousin today about so called ‘negative bias’. That is our tendency to be more likely to remember the one or two critical things said to us, or the few negative experiences.  This is not to say that many of us do not suffer from negative experiences but as we recover its so much better for us to be able to put our focus on something that can up lift, something not always so filled with upset, hatred, misunderstanding, criticism or violence.  I am just so over it all tonight and lacking inspiration just needed to vent.  There have been some weeks of sunshine inside my heart but for some reason tonight I am feeling especially down hearted.