Left Alone

I left you alone baby

I am so sorry

It took me so many years to realise

What I did to you

Not really knowing

How deep was the pain and fear that made me run

Leaving you alone

In a place so far from home

It can take some years

To see the things we did

When we started to come undone

When all we could feel at the time

(and not even fully)

Was the urgency of an unlived life

Pushing up from within

And so much pain passed on

We never chose

So now as I grieve

Fourteen years on

Please know I understand why you left me so alone

It was not something you chose

It was just ancestral life

Living on

In souls who did not know then

Fully what was driving the show

And as I shed these oceans of tears

On the eve

Of that day you left

Please know there is only deep forgiveness here

For every thing

And only love in my heart

Underneath the pain

Of everything