Unrequited

I wish you and I could dance

We have a thousand dreams to live

And hopes of all those precious times we could share

Body to body

But all there is is this endless separation and vacancy

And at times I fear it is hopeless to long

For what cannot be attained right now

For longing then seems nothing but

A recipe for disaster

Making all of the stars fall from the sky

Like tears that dissolve

In the wanting

Seeking to find their way back home to the ocean

Surrending light

But now darkness

Is all I can feel

Along with the haunting of promises

I fear may never ever come to fruition

And ever so slowly

Disbelief takes the place of hope

As my heart grows cold and barricaded

And angry words

Are propelled by spears

That cut and lance tender flesh

I was not made for this

I have told you all of this before

I was not made for a starless sky

And a river of pain

That refuses to ever stop flowing

Joyless days and lonely nights

Of unrequieted longing

That lead nowhere

And only end in tears

But still this love we feel

Makes me hold on

As we wait and burn and long

And wonder

When oh when is our real life

The one we dream about

Every time we draw breath

Ever going to manifest?