In this abyss there is no light
When it begins to appear above the horizon
I hold it back with the night
Of troubled thoughts
That weave a tangled labyrinthine inner mindscape
Containing corridors
Leading to infinite rooms of
Tormented memories
Here they smoulder
Still breathing fire
All of those harsh experience which befell me in a world
Where I had so little power
Over those who came and went
Leaving, absence and emptiness
The only shadows I now project
Transposing them like a veneer on present space
Rendering opaque
All new opportunity
While obscuring knowledge of what is real
Could it be
I am nothing but
The architect of this misfortune
This is an understanding I fought against
With all my might
But now as I witness
The dominos falling
History is repeating
Summoning up despair
While deep in my soul I feel that ache
For the loss of love that came
Bearing light
How I hoped your x ray vision
The mildest super power
Would see all the buried longing and hope
Hidden deep within the centre
Of this heart of darkness
Where has my warrior gone
The fearless one
Whose courageous deep seeing heart
Will hold steady to
An unwavering light
In the midst of anger and fear
Not allowing you to be
Led astray by demons
Summoned up to ransom love
While feigning innocence
Will you have the sense to surrender what it is you need
Just to stop a while
And hold mu hand within this darkness
As ghostly shadows encircle
The haunted perimeter of my consciousness
Which trapped my spirit
Within this prison
Over so many years
And when at last
With the approach of a fearless love
You see me summon up these walls
Along with all the doubts and reasons why and how
All I ever longed for but was denied
Can never come to pass
Please my love
Lay down your sword
As I grip my shield
Do not use it to cut at those
Tender shoots of new life
Which long to grow and find the light
Please turn a deaf ear
To all the silly things I say
And listen ever more deeply
With your heart
To all those buried emotions
Which underlie the knife
Keeping time
With the fractured beating of a restless heart
That wants so much
To start again
And build new life
But despairs so deeply
Of ever once again
Finding love and tenderness
Please I beg you do not turn and walk away
From a soul
Drowning in an abyss
Of terrrified apprehension
And baffling protestations
Of innocence
Emerging From The Dark Night 