When I come home to me
Within this skin
There is such comfort
As I lock the door and hide the key
Don’t try to confuse me
By saying my attempt to find refuge
Is a sign of something broken
Or awry in me
If so then where did the cut come from?
Not that in the end it matters
But for those of us who never found a home inside
Do you know how much it hurts to wander the world with wanting?
No skin
Just an open heart pumping
Longing to find love
But unaware of what kills it
In any case
And so if there came a time when
Heart bled so much
From this seeking
Wasn’t there a time to admit defeat
A time to turn around
And go home
Find the tornique
And apply it?
Wasn’t there a time to hear and see and make a home
For the youngest part of us that longed in vain?
Wasn’t there time to open our arms and say
I love you
You did no wrong
And now I will do everything
Within my power
To help you heal
Grow a spine
And dance to your own tune
The one that got stolen from you
When you listened to
And began to believe
All of their lies.
Emerging From The Dark Night 