Washed away

In time the pain washed away

You the lonesome sailor

I can still remember though

How it was to be swept by those tides of longing

Towards you

Wishing you could give me

A safe harbour

Shelter from the storm

And strong arms to hold me and love me through

All the terrible tides that hit

But just maybe you were not the one

Destined to carry me towards salvation

Maybe I had to grow my own sea legs over time

On a journey where I was often swept overboard

By king tides

Swallowed in the mouths of mermaids

Or tangled all around in their seaweed tresses

Over thousands of evenings of nightmare dreaming

Just maybe

I was meant to find the way

By sinking first

And learning over time to breathe under water

While surrendering to let those tides carry me

And although you appeared to me in a dream

Months before

As a wild surfer

You were angry at the word

Wild

I should have known then

That wild was not a place you wanted to live

That wild to you was a kind of threat

Or aberration

And I had about me

Too much of a stench of wild ocean depths

Where no air circulated much

And things were rotting at the root

So now when I appear again

As land creature with fish tail

After my time of long sojourn

In deep ocean

Will you see me as siren

Or as human being transformed

Am I the one who tempts you

Towards a reminder

Of depths you would rather not face

Or am I your true fate

Strongly disguised

Wearing the garb of a sea creature

That now knows land

Sailor

All of these long years later

I guess that you and I

Will never ever know

 

(Image credit : Liza Paizis)