Awash in Jupiter

Jupiter take me

Into that primal ocean of meaning

Feeling and healing

Where deeper truths are revealed

Barricaded by a mind

With all its defences

There were fences that I put around this pain

It hurt not to have the love expressed in the way I needed

But did that mean the love was absent

Not really beating there so deeply in hearts

Whose own need for love and open affection may have been

Similarly denied?

The early hours are the time I find myself

Awake in that ocean

Tossed about my memories and recollection

Together with waves of longing

Crashing and receeding

I feel your spirits surround me

Holding me in the love

You wish that now you could show

You know I feel it

As these barricades of doubt I erected deep inside my heart

Come tumbling down

I am just being held so deep inside this grieving

(Weeping sisters)

Feeling the truth

That love denied or longed for

Really is the basis of everything

Yes even hate

And so for now I float awake in this ocean

Awash in grief

That reveals to me the deeper truth of love

I so often ran from

But can no longer deny

The awesome power

And deep mystery of