Where the truth lies

Sadly I believed in true love In roses in moonbeams In rainbows appearing after storms From the earliest time when you went away To the last time as I sat by your bedside in the ICU holding you hand After we made the decision to set you free I longed for someone Who was wounded inside With not much to give And so much of their own tragic journey to undergo

So now when your son talks to me of how The love between you and his father failed Who is it really that is to blame?  We talk of how hard you worked to be seen In a family hell bent on another kind of survival We talk of how we just long to be connected Out side of this painful dream and tragic history We are two souls left Picking over the wreckage Trying to make something Of these scattered pieces

My heart breaks at times With the legacy she left  Take care of them Since you dont have children of your own But who is taking care of me? Maybe only God As I walk this path alone Making my way over stones Grasping those moments of sunshine and free play With Jasper when I can

I dont know if I believe any more in the kind of love You say you are offering me And in a way I dont even care I ll just give it all away Even to a scam Because the other way seems to be such an empty defeat But who knows Tomorrow I will change my mind again Feeling the scarring on my heart As thoughts turn this way and that And I struggle so hard to understand Where the truth lies