New Horizons

Loose

Unhinged

Unmoored

I am no longer sure

What I am living for

And somewhere deep inside

I sense life

Asking of me

Surrender of this sadness

To birth a new life

Now

After years of feeling

The weight of death crushing me

Grinding me to dust under its heavy footprint

I long so much to live

How can I explain

That this latest leaving

Awakens in my soul

A desire for all the freedom

I have never known

And reminds me

How constrained I feel here

In my heart and mind

Longing to be untethered

From this mooring

Place

Where feel pinned

To pain long past

In my imagination

There is a studio on the third floor

In an abandoned warehouse

With polished floorboards and slivers of sunlight

There I dance in ecstasy

Day and night

Sleeping on a mattress on the floor

Eating take out of those cardboard containers

You only see on American movies

Is this dream

A possible reality?

You see I long so to be free

To set my sights on a new dawn

That offers me new possibilities

Is all of this

Just wild imagining

Bidden by these feelings of being

Loosened

Unhinged

Unmoored

Oh my soul

How much I long

To set sail

For a distant shore

And go explore

New horizons